Share Your World – Week 50

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What is your favorite smell? What memory does it remind you of?

Some of my favorite smells are Sea Breeze and Ivory soap.  Sea Breeze takes me immediately back to my Aunt Mae’s house. I spent a few weeks during the summer each year with her as a child. She was my maternal grandma’s older sister. Ivory soap reminds me of my grandma and grandpa as this is the soap that they used. I loved all three of them very much. A whiff of these smells always brings a smile and a tear to my eyes. I miss them very much.

What type of pet do you have or want to have?

We don’t have any pets of our own now. Our grand-dogger Petra lives here right now. She belongs to our oldest daughter.  Since our health is getting worse in some respects, when Laynie goes back to school, Petra will probably go to live with friends that can take better care of her.  We have three kitties living outside here, but it is more that they own us than we own them. They were born in our carport; some have had their own babies out there (none have survived in the last two years). They know we’ll take care of them the best we can and that the humans here won’t hurt them. We are the Kool-Aid house for kitties.

At this point in our lives, we are doing good to take care of ourselves.  Even standing upright is a challenge some days.  While I may want a zillion kitties, we just do not need responsibility for any living creature anymore.

Are you usually late, early, or right on time? 

I have always prided myself in being on time or a little early. Once other people came into my life, that changed to a degree. *I* still want to be on time. They have other plans.

For recharging, would you rather meditate, swim, walk, listen to music, write, read, yoga, qigong other?

A nice long walk through a cemetery is a good recharger for me. They are so peaceful and a peaceful place for contemplation.  I really need a great big cemetery right now. There is a lot to process today.

Optional Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up? 

I am grateful for the years that I have had vision.  I am grateful for the eyes that caught mine all those years ago across the school yard. I am grateful for being allowed to see the beautiful faces of my children and my grandparents.

I am looking forward to finding out that cataract surgery is not at all like the horrible things that I have read online.  If it is at all like I’ve read, then I am looking forward to having a fatal heart attack so that I don’t have to face it.

This is what I saw as I rounded the corner into the craft department in the Walmart right after the eye exam…it is on the cover of a coloring book. The verse in the white box is what caught my eye.

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About Suzanne Gunter McClendon

I am a South Carolina native now living on the Texas Gulf Coast. I have been married to David for just over 32 years. We have 4 surviving children and one child-in-law. At this point in our lives, we are adjusting to an empty nest. I enjoy reading, writing, photography, digital art, fiber arts, and much, much more.
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15 Responses to Share Your World – Week 50

  1. David E. McClendon Sr. says:

    It is like God is saying He will take care of this for us. Zing! Zing!

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  2. Sending you healing energy for the surgeries! 🙂

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  3. Cee Neuner says:

    Don’t ever wish for a heart attack. From what I’ve heard cataract surgery is not that bad. And recovery time is nothing compared to real surgeries. Although I am not expert.

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    • Thank you for the encouragement, Cee. I just don’t see how I can sit there, fully awake, and have someone cutting on my eyeball. Every time I think about it – and it’s hard not to think about it right now – I have trouble breathing. I’ve been on the verge of an all out panic attack since the doctor told me yesterday. While I don’t really want a heart attack, at least I’d be asleep for any surgery involved with that. It seems a really sadistic person to come up with an eye surgery for which they don’t put you to sleep. Even my dentist wasn’t that mean…or stupid.
      Okay, say I’m sitting there wide awake, with their tools of torture headed for my eye, and my blood pressure spikes (I have been in hypertensive crises before), and I start having trouble breathing and just a major freak out, what will they do then? There are so many questions.
      If I don’t have the surgery, I might live to the point of becoming blind. Considering the female longevity in my family, I probably would reach that point.
      If I do have the surgery, a complication might cause me to be blind.
      Just some of the thoughts racing through my mind. It hasn’t shut up since yesterday afternoon. Sorry to sound like I’ve already gone off the deep end.
      From what I understand, one should be fully recovered within a month of the surgery. Thankfully I don’t have to have it done to both eyes, although both have cataracts. My left eye is blind already and the doctor said there would be no point in having the surgery on it. This left eye’s only purpose at this point is decoration and balance.
      She told me that it is all done by laser, but everything I’ve read says cutting is involved. The doctor that did the exam yesterday isn’t the one that would be doing the surgery. I have to see another one for that and maybe they play on the cutting fields, I don’t know.
      Most of all, I just need prayer to keep from an all out panic attack and to calm my terror. I know that sounds dramatic, but terror is a better descriptor than fear right now.
      Thanks for everything, especially your encouragement.

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  4. joey says:

    My MIL recently had the cataract surgery and while I would say for a few weeks it was frustrating for her, she’s pleased she had it done. She sees much better now. You have your husband to help you, as MIL had hers, and I think he will be helpful during your recovery.
    My MIL is a total control freak and I feel like if she’s glad she could get it done in both eyes, then any one of us can have it done in one.
    I hope you can find some peace with it, because heart attacks are often extremely painful and fatal ones are surely worse than some temporary blur and confusion ❤ Lots of well wishes to you!

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    • Thank you, Joey. 🙂 “Control freak” has been used to describe me before, too. I am the only driver in our family right now. I am a horrible passenger, thanks to too many accidents while other folks were driving. Vulnerability and being at the mercy of others are not my strong suits.
      It isn’t so much the blur for awhile that is upsetting to me and making me prefer to not be here. I know my limits and being awake while someone is working on my eye is well past those limits. Thankfully, only one will get surgery. The left eye is blind already and has been since I was really little. Surgery would do nothing for it.
      Another blogging friend has offered me some hope in that she was not awake for her cataract surgery. If I am asleep, I can deal with whatever they do to me. Awake, not so much.
      I already know that I couldn’t sit there while they cut on my eyeball, or melt my lens, as the optometrist put it.
      I am glad that things went well for your MIL and I am glad that her vision has improved. I hope things continue to go well for her. 🙂
      Have a blessed evening and a very Merry Christmas!

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      • joey says:

        My MIL was not awake, I believe they gave her quite a sedative.
        I really hope you won’t be awake either, that sounds frightening. x

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        • That is great to hear. So, two folks have told me they or their person was put to sleep, which makes me feel even better. All the websites I saw said that one was awake for this surgery, which seems like something a real sadist would come up with!

          Are you in the US or Canada? If Canada, I just might have to figure out how to get up there to have this done if they are going to go the sadistic route down here!
          The thought of being awake is totally terrifying to me.
          Have a blessed evening and a very Merry Christmas. 🙂

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          • joey says:

            Indiana 🙂 You maybe need to call around and find someone who understands your preference.

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          • Indiana works. 🙂 We’re calling the local ophthalmologist tomorrow to see which way she does it. If she says awake, then we’ll see what’s available in Sugar Land or Houston. Even my dentist, when I was 4 years old, understood my preference. It was safest for all involved. He zonked me to take out 8 baby teeth. I think he valued his kneecaps and Mama was tired of chasing me. haha

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