To Our Baby Girl


Dear Baby Girl, my sweet Dorian,

Twenty-five years ago today, you were born into Heaven.  My heart died that day right along with you. I prayed for you, to have you, to hold you.  I wanted you so desperately. I only had you long enough to know that He heard my prayers and then you were gone. Born asleep, never to know the pain that this life holds, but to also never know my complete love for you, which grieves me to this day.

What would you have been like?  Would you have had my eyes, my hair? Would you have liked to watch the birds, too? Would you have been a bashful beauty?  Or, would you have been like your daddy, blue eyes, a sense of humor, an outgoing personality, and able to speak in public?  These are things I will never know.

What I am sure of is that you would have loved to read, just as your sisters and brothers do.  I think that you would have loved My Little Pony, too. Maybe. The others are three against one on that one.

On this day of I miss yous and what would have beens, I wanted to let you know that you are still very much a part of my heart.  The two weeks of grief that I was allowed to have and still be considered normal and not a mental case are long past. Saying good-bye to you has become a part of who I am.  You are not here. I won’t see you again until Heaven, however long or short a time that may be. Until then, my heart cries for you.

I love you, baby girl.  Have a beautiful birthday up there with all of our family. Please hug the folks for me.

“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love.” –Washington Irving

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About Suzanne Gunter McClendon

I am a South Carolina native, but have been living on the Texas Gulf Coast for 14 years now. David and I have been married for 34 years. Our children are grown. Some are here at home, others are out in the big world doing their "thing". I enjoy genealogy, reading, writing, photography, digital art, fiber arts, cooking and much, much more.
This entry was posted in 2018, Anniversary, Babies, Birthdays, Death, Family, Grief, Loss, Trauma. Bookmark the permalink.

10 Responses to To Our Baby Girl

  1. Comedy Plus says:

    I’m so very sorry. Big healing hugs to you both. 😦

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  2. ghostmmnc says:

    ❤ Beautiful ❤

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  3. 15andmeowing says:

    Beautiful. I know she is watching over you and your family until you are reunited. XO

    Liked by 1 person

  4. A beautiful tribute, Sis. I envision your Dorian and our Heather playing together in Heaven, little wreaths of baby’s breath in their hair. I love you.

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  5. Vanessence says:

    Oh sweetheart! 😥 *hugs ❤

    Psalm 56:8
    You Yourself have recorded my wanderings.
    Put my tears in Your bottle.
    Are they not in Your records?

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