Vision Post #1

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I had this post all written in my head while in the kitchen. I came back in here and as soon as I got Word opened, poof! most of the post left me. I hate when that happens, don’t you?

Today is the month anniversary of my cataract diagnosis.  I am feeling an odd calm regarding my vision.  Not calm like I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the surgery will happen, because I don’t.  The realist in me knows that fundraisers with an open or non-existent end date are less likely to be successful than those with a specific end date.  Also, I know that the longer a fundraiser goes on, the less likely it is to be successful.

This calmness is something different.  Yeah, I still have some moments of total and absolute panic when I think of going blind.  I also have those same moments of panic when I think of having the surgery.

This calm is different.   I have the vision that, somehow, everything is going to be okay even if the surgery never happens, even if I do go blind.

This calmness is helping me to focus on getting some things done that have been the victim of too much procrastination.  It is helping me to see the importance of doing things NOW and not putting them off until later.  Later may be too late and I’ve never liked to be late for anything. Ever.

“Surefire things are deadening to the human spirit.” Dorothea Lange

I think that is what has happened here. If surefire things are deadening, then logic would have it that uncertainty is quickening. There is nothing “surefire” about my situation and it has prompted me to take risks that I have been too afraid to take before.

And I feel more alive than ever.

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Please be sure to visit David over at Random Thoughts and Observations.

Image source: Pixabay.

 

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About Suzanne Gunter McClendon

I am a South Carolina native now living on the Texas Gulf Coast. I have been married to David for just over 32 years. We have 4 surviving adult children and two children-in-law. At this point in our lives, we are adjusting to an empty nest. I enjoy reading, writing, photography, digital art, fiber arts, and much, much more.
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13 Responses to Vision Post #1

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  2. Davy D says:

    Suzanne, your challenges have inspired this uplifting post and a reminder to us all to enjoy the now. Many blessings and thoughts from the UK to help you along your journey.

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  3. Patricia says:

    I had cataracts removed from both eyes. First in 2015 was the right eye where I had only 10% vision. Then in 2016 the left was done it still had about 70% vision. The surgery was fascinating and not at all what I thought it would be like. I now have 20/20 distance vision and need reader glasses for close work. First time in almost 60 years that I don’t have to wear glasses all the time. I tell you this to encourage you to do whatever you can and have the surgery. Does your doctor/clinic have any financial plans you can use? Where I went they do but fortunately, I have insurance. I will be praying for your surgery.

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    • Thank you for your encouragement, Patricia, and for the prayers. David is working on contacting several people and organizations that may be able to help fund this surgery. He will also be talking to the hospital where this ophthalmologist does his surgeries to see what they can do to help with the hospital’s part of the cost.

      I am so happy that you were able to have the surgery and now have 20/20 distance vision. That is wonderful! Did you have any problems during or after the surgery? What did you think it would be like and what was it actually like?

      I think it would be great to only need reading glasses. These bifocals are giving me fits. I have to have my eyes about a foot away from my computer screen to be able to see it clearly and I’d have to be across the room to see it clearly with the distance part of these glasses. I’d be very happy to be able to stop doing face gymnastics to be able to read. 🙂

      Thanks again. Have a blessed weekend.

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      • Patricia says:

        I have had no problems at all. It was a fascinating experience. I was amazed that there was no pain and I could see clearly within an hour. Also, there are few restrictions after the surgery but not too bothersome. I went to work the next day. Just couldn’t lift anything over 10# and no bending over. And you wear a hard plastic patch when you sleep and cover your eye when you shower or bathe. Can’t get the eye wet or wear make-up. But all that only for 10 days. There are eye drops before and after surgery. If you don’t have insurance you will probably have regular implants because the ones that correct your vision are not covered by insurance so you will still wear bifocals. Still, you will wonder at the difference because the cloudiness and blurring will be gone. Sorry I took so long to respond. I am days behind!

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        • No worries about a delay in responding. 🙂 I am always behind and over the next few weeks, there will probably be long delays in my posting and responding. I apologize in advance for that.
          Thanks for sharing these details with me. I am glad to hear that it doesn’t hurt. How did you keep from being scared when they held your eyelid open with that scary looking device? I’ve seen descriptions of the surgery that make me think being blind would be far less scary. But, I want to be able to see, so I know once we raise the money, I will have this surgery, even if I do end up in a psyche ward from being scared. 🙂
          I am glad that you are able to see much better now. That is wonderful to know!
          Have a blessed weekend.

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          • Patricia says:

            I wasn’t scared because there was an IV with an anesthetic. It didn’t put me to sleep but I was so relaxed they could have cut off body parts and I wouldn’t have cared. There are also drops in your eye that numbs it so you don’t feel the ring. The whole process is amazing.

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          • Thank you for your assurances about this. I just hope I’m not that one in a million with anesthetic failure.

            I’m allergic to Demerol and Novocaine never did anything for me except numb my lips, which I think is probably one of the reasons why the dentist hospitalized me to put me to sleep to remove my teeth when I was little.

            What ever they zapped me with in order to do the D&C when I lost Dorian was some good stuff. The only thing I remember about that procedure was needing to scratch my nose. I lifted my hand to do so and the next thing I know I was waking up in recovery with nurses laughing at me for crying and then being wheeled out the door.

            I am so glad that you didn’t feel any pain and were not scare. Maybe you can send some of that bravery my way. 🙂

            Have a blessed day!

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          • Patricia says:

            You will be fine. Keep me posted so I can be praying.

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          • Thank you, Patricia. I will. Have a blessed day. 🙂

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