I have decided, as scared to death as I am about the eye surgery, I am going to try to put it out of my mind for now. I can do nothing about it until it is fully funded, one way or another. If the funding never comes through, I won’t have to be worried about what they would do to me because they won’t be doing it to me. If the funding comes through, then I can re-enter total freak out mode then.
I have too much to do right now to stay in total terror mode and I am not helping my other friends that are facing this by making my worries so public. To those friends, I apologize for putting my wimpiness out here and scaring you in the process.
Merry Christmas to all of you out there!